&the greying vision

Thursday, October 11, 2007 4:24 AM

i must and i need to do it fast.
or maybe not?
there's alot alot of things i wanna speak out.
but i knew i cant.

alright.
holland v again today!
(x
esp when this time round i went to my beloved, COLD ROCK!
I SWEAR COLD ROCK IS THE NICIEST ICECREAM I HAD.
seriously i'm falling in love with it.!
(x
and seriously thanks my darling, yanlin.
it was so fucking last min dating!
she nearly couldn't get out of her house because her neice don't let her come out.
i guess she did spent quite sometimes to coax her.
lol!
saw feli at the cold storage.
and chatted awhile.
walked over to queensway mac for some supper?!
lol.

anyway, i still went sentosa today.
thou there's like no sun. ):
I HATE IT WHEN I GO SENTOSA WHEN THERE'S NO SUN! ):

I LOVE YOU YANLIN. (:
thanks for being such a great friend.
you really understand me darling!
and you gave me good comment, be it good or bad.
i know it's just for my own good.
(:

fyi, i'm going sentosa again later on.
and look at the time ticking away.
430 am.
oh.
i'm so gonna be deadmeat! (x
panda will be spotted at sentosa CAFE DEL MAR later on.

for the rest of my holidays, i'll be kept very very busy.
-.-
i just don't understand why.
why do i make myself so busy.
i could have had all the time by myself.
but i went to make all those shit out.
sometimes i just don't understand myself.
so, practically i'm kept busy the rest of this week and the whole of next week.
ohh.
and i can be the regular customer of holland v already.
sun, i was there.
wed, i was there.
this coming sun, i'm going there.
next tues, I'M GOING THERE TOO!
ok.
like wtf rigth!?

touched on the topic of future.
somehow, i feel my future is vague.
really vague.
at this point of time, i should have know what job i want in the future.
yes, i know all along i've said i want htm, other than mass comm.
but you know htm is a broad course.
a course that cover a wide area.
in the past, hotel management used to be MY PASSION.
now, i cant say that anymore.
last year around may, the usual clique when we celebrated richie's birthday.
me and some of my friends were at the top level of esplanade,
i said, that will be my future working place(pointing the fullerton hotel)
and they said, those behind ones would be MY working place.
but things have changed drastically.
as what i told my friend,
everything will change, including me.
i admit, i've change.
but to what extend, it's not one that can decide.
lastly, i need some direction in my life.

oh yea.
we touched on this topic today.

Adaptability
Self-discipline
Perseverance
Integrity
REspect

all these factors it will follow us thru'.
i thanks ctss for teaching all these vaules.
i'm using them and i will need them definitely.

i'm crashing NGEE ANN POLY next TUES.
so np friends, if you wanna see me, or you miss me too much, look out for me.
(:
I KNOW YOU ALL MISS ME ALOT ALOT.

next monday will be alot of people's birthday.
just people whom i'm close to there's 3 of them.
AND friends on friendster whom i know them personally,
THERE ARE 8 OF THEM including the 3 of them.
LIKE WTH!
see 15 oct is a day to give birth, i think.
(x

i need to work.
seriously, i miss working days.
(x
i know i'm mad or something.

oh.
i just rejected a 300 bucks pay work.
i know it's quite stupid.
it's a 3 day 2 night gucci event over at KL.
but school starts! ):
oh there goes my 300 pay.
-.-
hais.
but i got the coach show! (x
oh and i rejected another show at vivo just because i wanna crash np on that day.
kinda stupid.
-.-

lalalalalalala.
LET'S SEE WHAT TIME CINDY CAN WAKE UP LATER ON!
AND WHAT TIME CINDY WILL KO AT NIGHT!
LOL!

now, i'm quite tempted to club.
but for my own sake, i shouldn't.
i'm quite tempted to smoke.
but for my own sake, i guess i should curb the temptation.
i know it's for my own good.
remember ctss values, cindy.
but i need to drink.
i need some alcohol intake.
to get something out of my mind.

[edited]

i went to sign up facebook.com
cos fred told me it's fun to play.
(it's quite hard for him to say something like this is quite fun.)
so, i tried figuring out what the hell was that, but i couldn't get a single shit of it.
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tags replies

b:haha. i really miss you lar! ): the last sunday of OUR holidays la! (: i've booked it for you already! now it depends on you. (x unless you wanna join me in crashing np(: i wanna tan. i think the next time you see me, i'm so fair la. if i dun tan. (: BUT I'M GOING LATER ON! (: do you wanna come with me?! (x

caroli: yea! this song is damn nice! (: i've been listening repeatly

yuyi: DARLING, I WILL NEVER FORGET EITHER! you're the first girl who said i look like indonesian! and subseqently, more and more people says that! I CAN BET WITH YOU I DIN'T SEE YOU BEFORE WE ENTER TP! lol!

1thing2do3words4you.